Letting Go

I am letting you go. I have come to terms with the fact that you don't think we're right for each other. I learned a lot about myself in the short time we were together, and I have you to thank for that. I just don't want to keep holding on to something that isn't there. I have to stop thinking about you and just let go. Maybe you and I are right for each other, just at a different time in our lives. Then again, maybe not. Only time will tell. I just can't let that thought get in the way of someone else. I haven't let anyone get close to me since you left. I can't stop thinking about you. That's not fair to them. That's not fair to me. I have been trying to work on me being happy, and for the most part, I am. The holidays suck, of course, but that's to be expected. I hope you are doing well. I hope you are happy. I hope you find someone that makes you feel complete. You are not "destined to be alone." You just need to let yourself be happy. Don't question yourself.

I will tell you this: I miss your friendship. I would do anything to have that back. My friend that would meet me for a beer after work. My friend that would help me grocery shop out of concern that I wasn't eating. My fridge looks the same as it did... I hope one day you'll call or text me just to go grab a drink and catch up. The part of my heart that you own (and always will) feels empty. I just miss you as a friend. I miss how we could have an intelligent conversation and laugh so hard with each other. Hopefully, I can have my friend back. Plus, I miss Kiki... :)

-Matt