New Year's Eve...

Here we are, 11:30ish pm and 2012 staring me in the (tired and heavy) eyes. So much has changed with how I am ringing in 2012 this year, compared to last year. 2011 started out with me still dealing with the pain of a break-up and not knowing what to do. I spent New Year's Eve last year getting drunk at my apartment alone until my friend came over and we played drunken board games. We then did the drunken hook-up thing. Way to ring in the new year with a bang...

I was hanging out with a different chick that I knew was trouble, and sure enough, proved it over and over again. I was practically stalked by this nutcase... Its unproven, but I think she is responsible for smashing my roommate's truck's window (after mistakenly smashing HIS window and not mine)...

I started to spend more and more time with a girl I kinda knew beginning at the halfway point of the year. It has progressively turned into what, I guess, you could call a relationship. We've met each other's families. Mine loves her and I'm pretty sure hers thinks I'm ok...

I have completely stopped drinking, and I now find myself over four months sober and I haven't really looked back. It has gotten easier and easier to stay away from the beer and booze that had been my crutch for so long. I have moved my addiction to something else: exercise...

I started to run and progressively moved into cycling. I bought myself a Specialized road bike and have REALLY gotten into this sport. I ride about 4 times a week, about 20-25 miles a ride. I am training for a triathlon, but have found I get the most joy out of the cycling and am starting to look into solely cycling events, as well. I have never been happier with how I look than I am right now, although, you won't see me walking around without a shirt on just yet...

I am looking forward to the possibilities and opportunities that await me in 2012, and I am excited to face any and all challenges! Lets go, 2012... Try your best!

Over 10 Weeks!

I have not had any alcohol for over 10 weeks! I am feeling great, too!!! Been working out 6 days a week in preparation for my upcoming triathlon. Gotta run! ...and swim... and cycle...

My New Goal

For the past month or so, I have been training for a triathlon. One of my best friends, Dr. Ryan, is training along side me. The goal is to complete the Coronado Island Triathlon in the middle of March. Beginning Monday, we are following an extremely hardcore training program to get us set. It is a 12 week program that will end before the event, but get us more than prepared to complete and compete in that triathlon. Since I have turned 30, I have become obsessed with being in shape. I am over 5 weeks sober with no alcohol in my near future. I am on dietary supplements, so the no alcohol is good for my liver. Baseball season just ended for me, so a way for me to stay in shape for the off-season is this. Just wait! We'll be tracking our progress all the way up to the event. We may start up a new blog just for this! I'll keep this up to date!

My 30s...

BLAH! I turned 30 today. No more 20s... Its a sad, sad day for me...

I'm Stuck On This Song/Artist!

Maybe I'd sell you a chicken... With poison interlaced wis the meat...

Great Weekend!

This past weekend was so great! I spent it with a girl that is becoming more and more important to me. We took my puppy dogs down to Coronado Island. I am so happy that my dogs love her and she loves them! We spent the day taking the dogs for a walk down to a little cove and letting them play in the ocean. This was their first time going to the beach and they ran right into the water and started playing! It was so cute!



Afterwards, we strolled around the town of Coronado for the afternoon. As the evening came, we went into San Diego and enjoyed an AMAZING Amos Lee concert at Humphrey's By The Bay.

Amazing Concert At The Hollywood Bowl! One Of The Best I've Seen!

I Like Where I Am, But Sometimes I Still Think About You...

Dedicating This To Someone Special...

Sara Bareilles "Basket Case"

Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes...

I can't believe it has been over two months since i posted something. I was dealing with getting ready to move into a house and all the stress that comes along with that. Dealing with "relationship" issues, as well.

I met a chick a few weeks after my last girlfriend and I broke up. We began to hang out, but I made it clear from the start that I did not want to be in a relationship. I just am not ready for that sort of pressure. The problem was she is way young. When we met she was 20. I knew that this was probably a bad idea to get involved with, but of course, I didn't listen to the old inner voice! We would hang out and then I wouldn't call her for two weeks (I know, I'm a shit head/asshole, but I didn't want to get too close to anyone). This went on for a few months, until she told me that she couldn't do this anymore. Her feelings for me were getting stronger and stronger and she knew the more she hung out with me, the harder for her it would be. I am not going to lie, I do still have feelings for her. I did then. I like her more than I'm willing to admit. I can't say exactly what is holding me back, but something tells me not to get involved. I don't know why, either. She is beautiful. She is a really sweet and genuine person. She is a singer/songwriter and her music is so amazing. I can't begin to tell you how incredible having a private concert in my bedroom is.

Well, needless to say, shit hit the fan and now she definitely hates me. Her best friends are all good friends of mine. Since they have taken my side on this, it's put a strain on their friendship. I, of course, feel horrible about this, but there really isn't anything I can do. I try to be a nice guy, but her age and maturity (or immaturity) shows. I knew this was a bad idea!

The new house is amazing! My dogs love it! They are so happy to be out of a cramped apartment. I am loving having a pool, as I find myself in it almost daily! I love the neighborhood, as I already know 5-6 of the neighbors. Things are really starting to look up for me! This is the start of something great for me! Been playing my guitar and writing new music. Feeling inspired!!!

Sunday Reflection...

I feel like the previous post is a little dark for me. Sorry to the people who thought it was a cry for help or anything like that. Truth is, I was completely drunk and had no recollection of even writing the post. Sorry if you got a little scare. Anyways, things aren't that bad. I just wanted to clear the air. But, yes, I am crazy about a girl I know. That part was true.

What's New In My Life

Nothing. Still single. Still depressed as ever. Still a drunk. I have found myself in a conflict of character of such. Let me get something straight: I have no prospects in the relationship business. However, the one person I am remotely attracted to is out of my reach. I find myself in a conundrum, seeing that she is in a relationship. I so badly want to tell her how I feel about her, but my conscience and nature of being a good guy gets in the way. I doubt it would change a thing, anyways. Go figure. Just like always, the ones I fall head over heels for either have boyfriend or they flat out aren't interested. Its ok... I've began to come to terms with this cold hard fact. Anyways, thats the news for now...

I Can't Wait To See Them At The Hollywood Bowl In August!!!

My Favorite Knockout Of All Time! Hendo, Baby!!!

iPod Was On Shuffle... This Came On And It Made Me Smile :)

The Best Time Of The Year!

Although, officially, the start of the baseball season isn't until March 31, I consider March the start of the greatest time of year! Spring Training for MLB is in full swing! My two softball teams started our seasons a few weeks ago and my baseball season starts on Sunday! I live for baseball. I love the sport passionately. I find it to be the greatest sport, as you not only have to be in shape, you need to be mentally sharp. It is such an in-depth game. So excited to see how this season turns out!

I Am Stuck On This Song! I Can't Get Enough Of It!

Definitely The Best Commercial From The Super Bowl!

Amos Lee's New Album "Mission Bell" Is Incredible

It is rare when I buy an album that I can listen to it over and over. Not only has it been the case with Amos Lee's newest record "Mission Bell," but that is all I have listened to for almost two weeks straight. Literally all I have listened to. The feeling of the album is one of melancholy and self-reflection. A few songs have a great positive feel, and I relate to this whole album. My favorite song from the album is definitely "Learned A Lot." I just relate to this song. It feels like it was written for me. This song came out at the perfect time for me, as it is EXACTLY how I feel about a certain someone now. I feel a lot more empowered after hearing this song.

Catching him live on January 28 also added to the incredible power of his songs/songwriting. I was so impressed by his live show, and I cannot wait until he plays anywhere near me again, because I will definitely see him again. His voice is great on his albums, but seeing him live only proves that it is even more effortless than I expected. He doesn't force out his songs. They just flow. His band is so tight and in perfect rhythm, it sounds as if you are listening to an album. I actually hope he comes out with a live cd/dvd. Do not wait to buy this album! It will literally change your life!

This Is My Theme Song Right Now! I LOVE THIS SONG!!!

Vegas!!!

On Monday, one of my best friend's was turning 30. We decided that it would be in our best interest to go to Las Vegas for such a momentous occasion. They say what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas... This trip was no exception! Although, I will say this: Las Vegas did not disappoint! Me and Las Vegas have a love/hate relationship. I love going to Vegas, but I HATE the hangovers that come along with it! I needed a good trip like this with two of the greatest friends I have. Good times and great memories... from what I can remember!!!

Amos Lee Live!

I saw Amos Lee last night at the House of Blues in Anaheim. It was incredible! His show was so amazing! His music is so amazing and he sings so effortlessly! It was so soulful and amazing! I have a video of a song on my phone... I'll figure out how to post it soon! If you have a chance, pick up his new album "Mission Bell." So worth it!

2011... So Far.

This has been an interesting month so far. A very close friend of mine from work just got laid off the other day. It was completely corporate's decision, but still, it sucks. He is eligible to be rehired instantly and he says he'll reapply for any open position, but still it sucks. It lowers morale around the store and puts people on edge. I am being moved to a great position in my store which will make me Monday through Friday! I can't wait. I have been working retail for so long, its nice to finally land a Mon-Fri gig! As for my social life, its fairly non-existent, although my softball and baseball seasons start soon! I can't wait to be out playing again! I have been playing and writing a lot of new music, as well. I am going to start a new musical project with some musician buddies I have. We are going to get together this weekend to begin recording and writing. We all play such different styles of music, so I think we can fuse together to make some amazing tunes! We'll see!!!

Social D's New Album Kicks Fucking ASS!!!

Wow... So Much Emotion In A Stripped Down Version!

I Look Back And Think To Myself That I Would Do It All Again...

This Is So Great! I Love This Version!

I Have Fallen In Love With This Song!

After Seeing You Last Week, This Song Sums It Up...

Most Of The Time...

Most of the time
I'm clear focused all around
Most of the time
I can keep both feet on the ground
I can follow the path
I can read the sign
Stay right with it when the road unwinds
I can handle whatever
I stumble upon
I don't even notice she's gone
Most of the time.

Most of the time

It's well understood
Most of the time

I wouldn't change it if I could
I can make it all match up
I can hold my own
I can deal with the situation right down to the bone
I can survive and I can endure
And I don't even think about her
Most of the time.

Most of the time

My head is on straight
Most of the time
I'm strong enough not to hate
I don't build up illusion 'til it makes me sick
I ain't afraid of confusion no matter how thick
I can smile in the face of mankind
Don't even remember what her lips felt like on mine
Most of the time.

Most of the time

She ain't even in my mind
I wouldn't know her if I saw her
She's that far behind
Most of the time

I can even be sure
If she was ever with me
Or if I was ever with her

Most of the time

I'm halfway content
Most of the time

I know exactly where it went
I don't cheat on myself

I don't run and hide
Hide from the feelings that are buried inside
I don't compromise and I don't pretend
I don't even care if I ever see her again
Most of the time.

Confused...

Not really sure what I'm doing. I am looking for faults in people to justify not wanting to hang out with them. I'm looking for a spark that is absent in my life. The spark that lit the fire within me before. I'm just not finding it...

I Know That Its A Wonderful World, But I Can't Feel It Right Now...

Keep Me In Your Heart For A While...

"Sometimes when you're doing simple things around the house, maybe you'll think of me and smile. You know I'm tied to you like the buttons on your blouse. Keep me in your heart for a while. Hold me in your thoughts, take me to your dreams, touch me as I fall into view. When the winter comes, keep the fires lit and I will be right next to you. "

Things I've Learned In 2011

• Whiskey Pong is a bad idea. No matter how good it sounds at the time.
• The whole "It was New Years Eve" excuse cannot be used on January 2, 3, 4, etc...
• Neighbors will inevitably hate me. Especially when streaking around my apartment complex. Singing at the top of my lungs. At 3 in the morning.
• There is no way, ever, to talk your way out of wiping your ass on someone's pillow. Own up to it. Be a man.
• If you're going to throw up out of your bedroom window, remember there is a screen. Remove BEFORE drinking.
• Drinking in the hospital parking lot is frowned upon by the general public. And the cops.

How Can You Not Like This Song?!

I'm Really Digging This Guy's Music Right Now

Hippo Gnu Deer!

I'm pretty sure I was streaking through the hallways of my apartment complex at 3am singing "Rehab" by Amy Winehouse.