Amazing Concert At The Hollywood Bowl! One Of The Best I've Seen!

I Like Where I Am, But Sometimes I Still Think About You...

Dedicating This To Someone Special...

Sara Bareilles "Basket Case"

Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes...

I can't believe it has been over two months since i posted something. I was dealing with getting ready to move into a house and all the stress that comes along with that. Dealing with "relationship" issues, as well.

I met a chick a few weeks after my last girlfriend and I broke up. We began to hang out, but I made it clear from the start that I did not want to be in a relationship. I just am not ready for that sort of pressure. The problem was she is way young. When we met she was 20. I knew that this was probably a bad idea to get involved with, but of course, I didn't listen to the old inner voice! We would hang out and then I wouldn't call her for two weeks (I know, I'm a shit head/asshole, but I didn't want to get too close to anyone). This went on for a few months, until she told me that she couldn't do this anymore. Her feelings for me were getting stronger and stronger and she knew the more she hung out with me, the harder for her it would be. I am not going to lie, I do still have feelings for her. I did then. I like her more than I'm willing to admit. I can't say exactly what is holding me back, but something tells me not to get involved. I don't know why, either. She is beautiful. She is a really sweet and genuine person. She is a singer/songwriter and her music is so amazing. I can't begin to tell you how incredible having a private concert in my bedroom is.

Well, needless to say, shit hit the fan and now she definitely hates me. Her best friends are all good friends of mine. Since they have taken my side on this, it's put a strain on their friendship. I, of course, feel horrible about this, but there really isn't anything I can do. I try to be a nice guy, but her age and maturity (or immaturity) shows. I knew this was a bad idea!

The new house is amazing! My dogs love it! They are so happy to be out of a cramped apartment. I am loving having a pool, as I find myself in it almost daily! I love the neighborhood, as I already know 5-6 of the neighbors. Things are really starting to look up for me! This is the start of something great for me! Been playing my guitar and writing new music. Feeling inspired!!!

Sunday Reflection...

I feel like the previous post is a little dark for me. Sorry to the people who thought it was a cry for help or anything like that. Truth is, I was completely drunk and had no recollection of even writing the post. Sorry if you got a little scare. Anyways, things aren't that bad. I just wanted to clear the air. But, yes, I am crazy about a girl I know. That part was true.

What's New In My Life

Nothing. Still single. Still depressed as ever. Still a drunk. I have found myself in a conflict of character of such. Let me get something straight: I have no prospects in the relationship business. However, the one person I am remotely attracted to is out of my reach. I find myself in a conundrum, seeing that she is in a relationship. I so badly want to tell her how I feel about her, but my conscience and nature of being a good guy gets in the way. I doubt it would change a thing, anyways. Go figure. Just like always, the ones I fall head over heels for either have boyfriend or they flat out aren't interested. Its ok... I've began to come to terms with this cold hard fact. Anyways, thats the news for now...