Embarrassing, But I'm Just Going To Put It Out There...

I have been tossing and turning all night. The anxiety of what is going to happen today is killing me. I don't want to see HER, but I can't stop thinking about how badly I want to see HER. I just know how hard it is going to be watching HER walk out of my life. I don't want HER to leave but I know that trying to convince HER to stay is against what SHE wants. I am trying to be cool, but I think I am about to hit my breaking point...

I don't want you to leave. I don't want you to walk out of my life. I don't want to go on without you by my side, although I know you need your space. I can do that, however, I don't want you out of my life. I don't want to be out of yours. The way you make me feel is something I can't explain. Its like nothing I have ever felt before and I don't want to lose that feeling.

Was I too nice? Too available? Too much? I know they say that nice guys finish last, and I can't help but agree with that. I did things for you not because I needed to, but because I wanted to. I wasn't putting on a front. I am a nice, honest, genuine person. So here's me being honest... I don't want you to turn your back on something real. I am not saying now. I'm not saying next week. I am just saying that you are walking away from someone who would do anything to make you happy. Anything to make you smile. Anything to take your breath away.

Enough of my embarrassing plea...