Making Amends...

I treated someone horribly three years ago. It has taken me this long to build up the courage to reach out to her and apologize. I can honestly say that I did not expect the response. I expected nothing. After all, I don't deserve anything from her. I treated her, a friend, with zero respect. I was selfish and did not account for the fact that she is a person with feelings. I did what I wanted to do at the time. The end result was that she was drug into the middle of personal drama with my ex-wife. It wasn't her fault, but I didn't apologize for it.

I had a moment of clarity the other day. I realized that I had apologized to everyone I feel I had wronged in the last 10-plus years, except her. I couldn't. I was embarrassed. I was humiliated. I was ashamed. However, like a true friend, she accepted my apology! I don't deserve to be forgiven by her, but the fact that I am lifts a HUGE weight off my shoulders. I feel so great! I have dwelled on what I did to her everyday. Not a day goes by that I haven't thought about her and what I did. Not a day goes by where I wanted to reach out to her and apologize, but today, I finally did. Goddamn... I should have done this years ago...